Wednesday I decided it was time to get back in control, get back on track. Enough of the moping, and time to get my head out of the sand. I went to Slimming World: Decided that there was no way of fitting my new low-carb, low-dairy lifestyle into Weightwatchers, not on 42 points a day and the constant planning and counting is messing up both my head and my life. So back to a life of free food, and limited carbs - Should see a boost to my weightloss, and a return of the happy Jenny that I want to be. I already felt a million times better driving back from the group session so that is a positive sign, and to add to this, Biker said that he has already noticed a change in me and my attitude. He said that I am saying things that only the Normal Jenny would, which shocked me. I didn't realise I'd changed that much to be a not-normal Jenny. But that is going to change back again.
I'm really looking forward to getting back into cooking, having proper food again, stopping the binging. REALLY looking forward to it. The downside is the calibrated scales. The SW scales weigh me several pounds more than my scales at home. 20st 1lb to be precise. But I will not let that discourage me; I will reset my ticker and my stats and treat this as my starting weight. It's only going to go down, I know this.
I haven't yet told Biker that I have changed from WW to SW. I think he may have his suspicions, he knew I was going to go to a new group session (from Thursday to Wednesday) and it will only be a matter of time before he clicks. But I'm sure he won't mind if it is better for me in the long run. I know he doesn't approve of the "all you can eat" policy but I need to do this for me, not him. He's pretty good with cooking, making nearly everything from scratch, so it should all be pretty much free food.
I am allowing myself one day a week, not "off plan" but relaxed. Not going to go silly with it, but that would be for social things. Like if I go out with my friend and her kids, I can’t tell her what they have to eat, and she’s a mum on a budget, so if we end up in Pizza Hut, so be it. If I go out for tea with Biker and his family, I don’t want to be eating salad when everyone else has curry and naans, I don’t want to ask for grilled chicken, hold the carbs. Since I would have been having a relaxed day 3 or 4 or more times a week before, this should be ok. I am comfortable with this idea.
I have compiled a list of stuff that I actually like, that I will want to eat on a regular basis. Both meals and snacks. And I have assigned the syns value to each item. It is not a case of never being allowed a treat ever again, never having convenience food again. This is liveable, I have proved that before and I can do it.
To be honest, it really does feel good to be back in control, to be positive again and not to be “scared” of food. It has been a dark couple of months but now we are seeing some sunshine again.
Upcoming Hurdles in March
04/03 - Pizza night at Tracey’s
08/03 - Pancake Day
10/03 - Out for Tea – Posh Restaurant
11/03 - Away for the day
25/03 – Out for tea, not sure where yet
I can still have my WW Quorn Curry with naans, just need to pick the right naans and syn accordingly :) My plan is the Extra Easy route, which has one A (dairy) choice and one B (fibre) choice per day. The rest of my food, I will be trying to have “red” food and my 1/3rd SuperFree food. It should be a doddle. I understand that the whole red/green/superfree concept may be confusing to some, but it works in my head.
I’m still sticking to my bans, my challenges. This month is no biscuits or cake. I may put this back to No Biscuits, as there are some good looking SW cake recipes that I wanted to try: The old All Bran Chocolate cake, and the Weetabix cake. There’s a proper chocolate sponge also, but we’ll see how we go.
Other recipes I have on my “to try” list are
Prawn Toast
Onion Bhaji
Cola Chicken
Panna Cotta
Thai Duck Curry
And Beef Ramen.
Looking forward to this, very much so :)
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