Breadban

Impressed. Breadban done.
No bread, no rolls, no pancakes, no muffins, no chapatis, no garlic bread, no pizza, no ciabatta, no pittas, no naans, no brioche, no crumpets, no croissants (not sure if they counted but I didn't have any anyway!) and no buns.

I.... am proud of myself.

After a long and hard think... a week I think, having weighed up pros and cons and thought about the whole picture... I feel like a complete headcase. I don't know what to do for the best. I honestly don't believe that cutting out any food group is going to do me good in the long run. Especially carbohydrates and sugar. This, I feel, will have a negative impact on my health by the way of diabetes. If I cut carbs as a "short term weightloss plan" as suggested by the doctor, I fear that when I start to re-introduce carbs, my digestive system is going to say "WOOOAAAAAHHH what's all this sugar?! What do I do?!?!" and before I know it, BAM full blown diabetes.This is not what I want at all.

I read Pig to Twig. Well, "the Idiot Proof Diet". Most of the pre-amble anyway, I stopped when I got to "organic" this and "organic" that. You may know my thoughts on organic produce, I won't digress into that just now. The mental side of things made a heck of a lot of sense. The comfort eating and the why you shouldn't, and all of that. Made me think about things. Mind you, at this point I had already eaten about 3 tatties more than a pig and it was pretty pointless in the end.

This is my problem. Comfort eating. Having "one more day". I know full well that when I feel sad, or want to say to myself "well done", I buy cakes and biscuits and I sit and eat them. I am showing signs of OCD and verging on an eating disorder. I definitely fall foul of disordered eating, whether it's officially a Disorder that would be diagnosed or not. I have been keeping a diary of thoughts and eating. My meals, my breakfast, lunch and dinner - spot on. I probably eat out too often, but that's my choice of social life.

However, I did sit down with a cuppa tea and 8 Jammie Dodgers. Yes, 8. And I saw sense and binned the biscuits in the end.

So I think that this month, I will cut the junk - Aim for no biscuits, no cakes, no crisps, no chocolate bars... I have an order of WW Chocolate Cookie Bars and WW Toffee Bars on the way, these will be ok, one a day, no more. NO MORE. Other than that, no "treats". They aren't treats. I have to stop thinking of food as a reward, as a prize.
If I cut all this crap, and eat healthily, there is no way, not a cat in hells chance, that I can eat 42 points a day. I'd easily get 30, maybe 33, but I would struggle to get more than that...