A 61 Year Old

I was over at the Fellas house this afternoon, and he said he was at his folks last night and his dad thought the scales were broken, and his mum wouldn't even consider going near them - Would Biker see if they were working, cos his dad was sure the reading was wrong.

Biker weighed.

Reading was near enough what it read last time he was at my house, so they seem ok.

Which means his dad is little over 9 1/2 stone. He's not weak, or frail, or anything like that, he's just a normal bloke with a slight build. Biker said he was about 3 1/2 stone more than his dad, which puts him just over 13 stone and he just shrugged when I said is that ok, or did he want a different number, so I think he's wanting to tone up a bit or something, I don't want to pry, he knows he can talk to me if he wants. He knows diets and stuff occupy about 75% of my thoughts....

I know already his mum has a go at him regularly for putting on weight since he moved out of her house and her cooking, but this is because he can cook what he wants now, he can eat what he likes. I have my suspicions that I am "to blame" for it, and maybe to some extent I am. At weekends we always have a dessert at some point. We do a lot more baking together than we would apart. We try new food, new recipes, that you might not risk if someone else wasn't there willing to risk life and limb to try it. And yes, we eat out on average probably once a fortnight. But at the same time, he boredom snacks when I'm not there, he's confessed that to me. But anyway, he fell for me knowing that I was fat and if his mum can't cope with that, that's her problem. I am who I am, he wuvs me, and that's that.

But enough about his weight and what he may or may not want to do with it...

I confessed to him that between the largest that I know of, and my target weight, was actually a good stone more than his dad weighs.
And then I went quiet for a second or two and thought about that.

And thought about it.

And can't stop thinking about it.

I have the equivalent of a 61 year old man to lose, just to be healthy. Actually, that doesn't even put me at a healthy weight, that would leave me still "Overweight"

I don't know how I feel about that...

Quite upset with myself, really...